It’s a Little Bit Late To Wish You a Happy New Year

But I’m going to do it anyways.

Happy new year to all of you. I tried to make some posts about 2015, why it was going to be a great year… About 2014, why it was a great year. But, for different reasons I ended up not doing it.

The point is i’m here now. And I do believe in “Better late than never” . When the clock stroke 12, I had a feeling this was going to be the best year ever, but as recent evens occurred to me, that feeling was slightly changing.

It isn’t anymore. I founded my way back… The thing is, things never go as we planned them. But we need to understand thats not a bad thing! Nothing ever happens randomly, and sometimes is really hard to move on, it’s really hard to let go and it’s especially really hard to forgive. But those are the greatest lessons life can teach us! So after a while of sobbing and asking why certain things happened to me, I now acknowledge it is for the greater good. I’m much more in touch with myself, I’m happy and it’s the start of many good things.

I hope this is a great year, for all of us!

Now, I want to leave you sharing this thought I came out with recently:

“What we need to understand is we don’t have to worry. Soon enough feelings will become thoughts, thoughts will become memories. This whole situation will become just another experience. And suffering will become knowledge.” KAT.

It’s fine, cause i’m learning…

Today I was at a bar in this gig, I was wearing a Jack Daniel’s t-shirt and an Arctic Monkeys cap. I wasn’t so sure of wearing both, only because I thought it had already too much text. So I ran into this friend and he tells  “They don’t go together” and i’m like “Yeah, I know but…” then he clarifies “I meant, if you bought them together…” “No.”

What sort of deep message im trying to reflect with this tale about my night? It’s okay. I was worried that they wouldn’t match so at the first comment I was blabbering with excuses. I don’t want to be like that! I want to wear something and be sure of it. So as the band played and I was dancing to a song and thinking about it I realised this “It’s fine, cause i’m learning”

And it applies to more deep situations that wearing a cap that doesn’t match. My point is, it’s hard to be yourself, especially cause it’s also hard to discover who you are. That’s the only way to discover, failing, getting up, thinking it’s fine, learning. So I will make my mistakes and I will discover and be exactly who I am and who I want to be.

Hope you, dear reader, can do the same.

What if I fell into a black hole?

If WordPress had a subtitle for posts, this one’ll be: Thoughts and Theories on Interstellar.

For the ones who haven’t watched it yet, do yourself a favor and go watch it now!

I loved this movie so much. Reason number one: I adore the topic, since I was a little kid I’ve been interested by stars and the phenomena of the universe, especially black holes.

I also liked the screenplay and the way it was developed. Okay, I have to say it: I’m mad because Gravity won best screenplay on las Oscars. I mad about it because there where some great screenplays and they chose for a winner one that had 10 lines of dialogue through all the movie. Ah, better. I needed to get that out of my sistem. So, doing an unnecessary comparison (only because they are both related to the space topic) Interstellar screenplay was wonderful and very emotional (I have to admit I cried every time he got a message from the earth). It was important that the love that’s shown in the movie is a father- daughter love instead of a regular couple love, because even though media (and myself) love a couple, I believe the love they showed us was simply pure.

Also the way the ghost turned out being the father was genius. It was delightful, powerful moment when he is trapped in that sort of universe where he can communicate with our reality. Even though I believe they might be nine-dimensioned universe where time and space can be controlled because it’s not a three-dimensioned one, I have a theory about what would happen if I fell into a black hole. Basically I will de-atomize becsause the power of gravity there would be so quick and powerful that there will no longer be a “ME”, but more like a “Atoms of me” and then my atoms would reintegrate with “ME” in a new dimension. Although that would be more a wormhole than a black hole. But this are just fantasied theories.

^ A little bad drawing of me falling into a black hole.^

The only thing I found just a bit unnecessary was Dr. Mann issue… The movie is long enough and that wasnt that important, they could at least made it not that long.

Murphy reminds me of Josey, from black hole high… Am I the only one? Black hole high was the best show when I was little and I recently saw it, also worth of seeing.

Now about humans invading other galaxies, I just hope that if we do get to that point we become really aware and start valuing all the beautiful amazing things that we have and care about them instead of destroying them. I think there’s still hope.

Did you liked the movie? What was your least and favorite part and what are your black hole theories? Let me now!

-KAT

It’s Okay…

It’s okay to be an outsider. It’s okay to be part of nothing. It’s okay to want to be part of something. It’s okay to miss things. It’s okay to fight your past. It’s okay to let go, but it’s okay don’t wanting to move on. It’s okay to want a forever and it’s okay to not want it. It’s okay to change. It’s okay to realise things. It’s okay to want love. It’s okay to be afraid of it. It’s okay to act silly. It’s okay to say no. It’s okay to have a personal opinion, a critical opinion, a different opinion. It’s okay to be lost. It’s okay to be found. It’s okay to be yourself. It’s okay to seek for more. It’s okay to laugh really hard and It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to express yourself. It’s okay to take challenges. It’s okay to have second thoughts. It’s okay to leave. It’s okay to stay. It’s okay to live. We are allowed. Allowed to be anything, everything we want to be. And that’s okay.

KAT

P.D: I just wanted to say a bunch of thing I believe are totally okay, Whats okay to you?

A Must for Aspiring Flimakers

In previous posts I’ve stated that I am a writer. Since I was very little I knew that. At five years old I wanted to be a singer, so I started writing songs. I continued until I was 14, then I discovered good music (I’m talking about the classic here, everything from Pink Floyd to Jimi Hendrix to the Doors) Amused as I was, I stopped writing songs. I didn’t wanted to write them if they weren’t as good as the music I discovered. Now I write song every now and then, but that’s other story. Anyway, I knew I was a writer, but I also knew I didn’t wanted to write only books. I wanted something more; I wanted something that connected all of my passions. That’s when I thought of filmmaking.

So I’ve been doing some reading about it and I came along the following book:

Before I started this post I tried looking for it, but it seems there´s not an English version. It doesn´t matter, cause it is a recompilation of Paul Auster’s scripts and interviews and you probably can find them. Here´s the content:

1. Prologue by Wayne Wang
2. Making of <<Smoke>>: Interview by Annette Insdorf
3. <<Smoke>> (Script)
4. Auugie Wren’s Christmas Story
5. Introduction to Blue in the Face
6. Actor`s Notes: July and October 1994
7. <<Blue in the Face>> (Transcription)
8. <<Lulu on the Bridge>> (Script)
9. Interviews by Rebecca Prime: Paul Auster, Author and Director; Alik Sakharov, Photography Director; Kalina Ivanov, Artistic Director; Adelle Lutz, Costume Designer; Tim Squyres, Editor; Peter Newman, Producer.

When I finished the book I came to the following conclusions:

1. Paul Auster is a true genius!
2. Everyone who is interested in filmmaking should read this.

Why? Because it`s a sneak peek of the filmmaking world. It´s not only the scripts, is the making of, is the teamwork. Writing a book is an often-solitary activity. Making a movie is quite the opposite. You need a team, and everything that everyone on the team does is going to determine the movie final results. So if you have the chance, I strongly recommend you to read it.

Here are a few things I´ve learned/ I want to comment:

SMOKE: The whole concept of the movie is based on a Christmas story Paul Auster wrote. From a 3-5 pages long story a whole movie was made. That’s quite impressive. The movie moves along a “day at a time” environment, where things happen, but that not necessarily means something is going to change forever for any character, and it ends with the Christmas Story of Auggie Wren.

BLUE IN THE FACE: So they’re finishing the making of Smoke and Paul decides to make another movie about some characters in the previous one. Not a sequel, just a peek into their lives. He writes some notes for each scene, and when the cast is selected they just let it roll. Every actor’s improvisation plus Paul Auster’s notes and secret comments to just one actor of a three or four actors scene creating scenes almost by chance. Like I said, Genius! To do that and actually end with such great results it´s fun, unpredictable and certainly impressive.

LULU ON THE BRIDGE: After the previous two movies Paul didn’t felt like doing another movie, ever. A story popped into his mind, he fought it, he tried to make it a book, but deep down he knew that story was destined to be a script, to be a movie. What it’s meant to be will be. Also with the interviews I truly learned how important everyone roll is.

I love the way Paul Auster don´t only uses chance in his novels, but in his real life. If one thing is true, is that chance is in Paul Auster’s side.

-KAT.

Traveling alone

One of the things I love the most is traveling alone. Since I was little i’ve always liked planes. The first time I was on a plane was when I was 6 months old, ever since I just never stopped getting on them. Planes. They take you everywhere, anywhere you want. As much as I love traveling, knowing new places, new cultures… I love just as much traveling alone.

I’ve traveled with everyone: With my grandma, who prays all the flight, with my mother and brother who love the screens of the plane, with 40 of my classmates… But i’ve enjoyed none as much as when I travel alone.  Is that crazy?

It’s just that it’s easy to think when you are alone, on a plane, high on the sky, looking through the window and just seeing a white paradise. Inspiration always hits me at the weirdest times and places, the movies being one, planes being another. Lately i’m traveling all by myself, and I love it.

Who you like to travel with?

KAT.

Blogging about blogging… Once again

I know, again?! But I cant help it. I know nothing about the blogging surface. Know nothing about how to get people to read me, to give me feedback. My mind is an ocean, I got so many thoughts, ideas, things I want to express… Reviews, personal stuff, stories… I just don’t know where to start. I hope I find out soon.

KAT

Who’s on the other side of the Screen

With this new wave of my blog I’ve decided that I wanted to post more personal things, this being the first and most basic. Who am I. Who is the person thats sharing her thoughts and ideas at the other side of your screen.

I like to be called Kat. And for the record, I do love cats. I’m a 18 year old girl living in a country of Latin America. To me, Latin America is a Chaos Paradise, and I wouldn’t liked it any other way. It’s never easy talking about myself, although since you cant really see my face it’s kind of easier.

I’m a dreamer, i’m a believer. I believe in destiny and in hope. I believe that you need to have a positive mind set in order to live a happy life, but I’m aware thats not always the easiest thing to do. There’s the catch. I like writing. I write everything, stories, journals, right now blogs!… It’s my therapy, it’s the way I keep my mind in the clear, the way I keep myself sane.

I question life a lot, I enjoy the small things, nature, music. All types of music, especially indie, but I’m open for everything. I enjoy watching movies and Tv series, I’m finishing school and i’m so glad!

Some little facts about me: I love coffee, it’s my fuel. I enjoy reading at 5pm in my hammock, enjoy sunsets and I play the bass.

I don’t really know what else to say, if you want to know something feel free to ask.

I want to know you as well, so let me a comment and i’ll check your blog.

Love,

KAT.

This Is NOT a New Blog!

It`s not! If you read my very first post then you will know that I have this horrible habit of creating blogs and then closing them. It`s hard for me to keep up with my blog and I think it is hard as well for some other bloggers. So, after a long period of thinking if I should delete my blog and create a new one I came to terms with myself.

To be honest I didn’t liked the way my blog was turning. Of course, that didn’t meant that i couldn’t redirect and improve. So that’s what I did. I spent a long week scrolling throughout all my posts, deleting those I truly hated, improved some that needed to be improved. Now I’m very happy. I want to stay active and posting. So to my new and former readers, there are some thing I would like you to know:

1. I’m not a technology geek, in fact, I barley know the basics of WordPress,  if someone wants to give me feedback, help, ect, please do!
2. I mostly want to write stories and reviews, but I may add something personal or just a good advice post.
3. I want to follow you! I want to know what you think, how can I improve. I want to become a great blogger, but I need your help. If someone wants me to check their blog or recommend me some good ones, please feel free to leave a comment. Also give me your must sincere feedback, everything helps.

That’s it. But it will get better!

-KAT

Story tellers (500)

Welcome to story tellers. This is a little system I invented in which I take a random image and then write a 500 world story with it. This time I took the first image on my Tumblr dash.I do this to get me out of my comfort zone, so it might not be the greatest story,but I do my best and will keep practicing. This is how the story went:

“The sun was high in the sky, shining brighter than ever. As I hold him, I could feel the light breeze through my semi naked body.  I take a deep breath, I breathe the moment. I make it mine. I want to live in that moment forever, frozen like a picture.

But I know it can’t last forever, so before it ends I hold him a little bit longer, a little bit tighter.  I kiss his neck, I hold his back. His hand slowly reaches to my butt and I can help but feel turned on. I smile, heavily breathing on his neck, my pulse starts speeding up.

Have you ever felt in love and turned on at the same time? I didn´t even knew that was possible. He made me feel like that for the first time. It’s the most overwhelming feeling.  I’m in love with him, in love with this moment, in love with his mind, with his eyes, his mouth, every part of his body. Every little part of him makes me feel alive, makes me go a little bit crazy, the good kind of crazy.

Now, I wasn’t always like this and if you asked me in the past about love I would grin and throw up. I though love made you weak. Now I get it’s absolutely the opposite. It makes you strong, vulnerable, but strong. This was nothing like a bad relationship, trust me, I’ve been there, done that, too many times. I’ve been through all kinds of idiots. I’m not really sure how I stumble into this amaizing man.

I guess sometimes you just have to let go of everything. Don’t care about others, don’t be superficial. Just focus on the mind. On how this mind speaks to you, understands you. The way you click. How everything feels like it was written in the starts, like it was meant to be.

The way everything is connected amuses me. The breeze and the sun, the ocean and the colors, the fishes and the rocks, our bodies holding so close, our hearts beating fast, the things we’ve been through and the things we will be through. The music in my head, the way he looks at me, the way he makes me feel.

Now. This moment. The present. Our present. I can’t stop smiling. I can’t stop thinking how much I love him, he makes me feel like art, he makes me feel like reading a book and writing. He makes me feel like music. The way he sees right thru me, the way he is in love with my mind, the way we can get from corny to horny. We are lovers and we are friends.  I feel like screaming and crying, I feel like listening to a happy song on replay. I´m aware nothing lasts forever, but on my mind it will, because right now I’m in paradise.

I look around, look straight at him, with glossy eyes, kiss him and let go.”

-KAT